Haha..talking to Simin right now. Just suddenly just wanted to listen to Landy Wen's song. Haha. Thought of how the Cedar gang in tuition is doing.
Haha. Then the urge to look back into the past. But I resisted to urge to go to my archives.
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Had supper with Sylvia, Shermaine, Brother Fabian, Chek Yao, Mari...(cant remember the name), Eric and one more guy. Haha. Had our usual sharing of revelations and walks. The usuals. As of usual, it encourages me as usual. I really treasure the fellowship I am able to have with them.
As I always put it, it's a special bond I have with them, next to, or perhaps even as close as a family. Our vision are of the same, and it's just that irreplaceable feeling and bonding.
And as I sat at the table after my supper, observing the people around me. It just dawned on me how much my life has been transformed. I saw right away, how I could have been with Weisong and Vinson, maybe some other tuition people, eating supper.
How it could be, clubbing and Barcadi (it'll always remain my favourite alcoholic drink even though I stopped drinking, not that I was a regular drinker anyway). How perhaps, I would be involved in a BGR. How much of less of what I am right now. Oh, and definitely be emoing over Jay Chou songs lol. Haha. It really played like a fast movie in my mind during that 10 minutes (with music).
Yet, how God pulled me from such a small and meaningless fate, into one with a glorious destiny. I would have never dared to dream to be an aspiring youth that changes life. It's just that overwhelming feeling when I think about all that.
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I love my life. Do you love yours?
2:04:00 AM | Saturday, October 27, 2007
Haha. Today's CG was awesome. It was about the Dream Team.
We must just push our way through to the leaders. To grasp the heart of God, learn what the leaders would do, and do it.
That means talking to the new integration when he/she is standing there looking around, being alert to notice it at first moment.
It means always being servant hearted. Whenever seeing someone that is in need of help (leader or not), be there to help. Offer even if they don't ask.
It means being alert enough to notice when your CG mate is down spiritually, and to administer to him/her, and speak life to her.
Every little bit counts, no matter how small the action seems to be. Because God will magnify it. Remember how insignificant 5 loaves and 2 fishes was to the thousands that need to be fed? Yet it made all that difference. --
Haha..just realised how much we should be growing, yet we are hindered by unneccessary and supposedly insignificant distractions. How we should be at the next level, instead of still dwelling here.
I'm sick of this level, and I really can't wait to breakthrough to a new level. Life is good, but that's not enough. I want to see lives impacted and changed for Christ! And I will never touch or take any bit of the glory that is meant for God, for myself, never at any point, no matter how much the Devil may tempt me.
Christians reading my blog, let's really get convicted, and breakthrough our barriers once and for now. If it's not now, then when will it be?
How I yearn for you Lord.
4:06:00 AM | Sunday, October 14, 2007
Just finished watching The Secret. Haha.. it's really a beautiful show. The apex was really sad..
On hindsight now, the careless mistakes of Jay inadvertantly attributed to the death of Rain. It was really heartwrenching..especially the part where she carved her last words onto the table, and Jay, in that parallel timeline..not knowing that his love has just died on the very spot he was at, at the moment.
Haha..and interestingly enough..I found myself begging the movie not to let anything bad happen to the girl..
Ending would have been very sad without the last scene with the photo haha.
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Reflections.
The song lyrics differ greatly from the story of the movie. And there were rumours that Jay directed it from his life story. If that's the case, that would be interesting.
Is he the one that's unable to let go of the past and still lamenting? Is he emo again?
Haha..but I just love his composing skills. Hopes he get saved soon.
Jay Chou rocks! God bless! =)
1:02:00 AM | Monday, October 08, 2007
Haha. Hi guys. Another awesome week has passed with the grace from God.
To sum it up, Saturday was a breakthrough service for me. No-name event really allowed me to be led by the Spirit in prayer. I was praying for many people, and it's like, it just can't stop!
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Oh..and one thing I really dislike about myself is that I can't blog when I want to! Nevermind la. I share with people in my CG le, but its just that I would rather post it here for all passerbys to read too.
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On a side note of reflection..
I began to rediscover myself, in a different perspective.
1) God made me a man that is sensitive to emotions (to myself, daresay a little to others?). I catch myself asking myself how would XX feel after ZZ did on the spot, and just thought how they would feel, whether it's a big thing or not. Maybe that is where I get notions of sympathy. One interesting note is that, in the past, I would not dare to cry from what I feel. Now, it's a whole different matter with God. =). He has just emboldened me.
1.5) From the first point, I could see why I loved Emo songs in the past. Because I was allowing my emotions to consume me, rather than be a master of it, and to enjoy from it.
To be honest, I always try to see how the songs would meant if I was in it (yet again, from point 1). Inadvertantly, I make my life in the past turn out exactly like how the songs would go. Sad, unappreciated and nostalgic (with a hint of self-righteousness). Isn't it sad that we in those times thought it was the best thing to do?
2) God made me a man that appreciates natural beauty. Haha. If you really know me as a true friend, you would know that I'm a sucker of waterscapes and landscapes. I'm the sort who would lie down on a patch of grass after hiking, simply to stare into the sky and clouds. For that very same reason, that's how I fell in love with classical music, and still loving pop culture music at the same time (except metal) And it just makes me even more appreciative of it after knowing God made them =)
3) I love singing. Although it is dangerous to a point where I know I may sing for the sake of singing, one thing that prevents me from doing so is that I love worshipping God than singing.
To really be broken to Him, and to exhalt him is really a dream for me. I would love to do it 24/7 a day if I was without physical limitations of tiredness (then again, that is what makes worship so precious, to be able to thank God even when you're tired and down).
That's all for now.
Lovely people, good night. =)
12:06:00 AM | Monday, October 01, 2007
Haha. Just here to blog about the weekend. It's been another great weekend haha.
Just had this suddenly had this flashback while I was typing this. I remember back in Sec 3. I had a "follow up" thing with Adrian. And he was sharing he knows less about about God the more he learns about God.
Slightly confunded at first, I realised that he meant the more he learns about God, the more he realises that he knows the little of the many wonders of him. Amazing right?
It's been a year, and I'm still learning in my walk with God. Haha. Then was wondering of the pastors before us. Pastor Ulf, Pastor How, Pastor Cho. They all had like 10 years in their walk at the least (some even 30 years). And they are still learning.
Can't wait to catch up! =)
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Today's service was so full of the presence of God.. In fact, it's the first time I encountered the presence when I least expected it. And it just swept over me suddenly. It was so amazing..and I could do nothing but just fall on my knees and worship with my arms high up, tears just pouring down.
It lasted like..10 minutes? Seems like so. Cause waves of tears just came pouring down..and my face was almost cramped (bet it was super unglam, but who cares? we were all worshipping with all our heart).
Let me share with you the lyrics of that song.
One Life, One Love - City Harvest
Who am I, that you would know me from the start Set me apart. Who am I, that you would place eternity into my heart
You have given to me more than this world could give My purpose is found in you
One life, I lay at your altar One love, I have with you Touch me again, fill me as you hold my outstretched hands One word, you know I will follow One heart, broken to you Use me again, your mercies follow me, for all my days
In your presence, in your power, Holy Spirit I surrender
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B4, you rock!
God bless =)
1:47:00 AM | Thursday, September 27, 2007
IMPACTED by Noel Dickson Ongah!
You Rock!
11:51:00 AM | Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Sorry if this post came a little too late. My mouse just went bonkers Sunday, and I felt so unwell yesterday I went to bed early.
Thanks guys. This year was even better than last year. Just a brief summary. The CG celebrated my birthday along with Fatih's and Ting Wei's on Saturday! Cass, Mel and my aunt went to buy Swenson's ice cream cake for my birthday on Sunday!
Haha. My Daniel fast ended just on time =). if not I might have to wait a week to eat them =/.
Ivan, Sam and Charleston also bought me a leather wriststrap for my birthday. Haha. Maybe it would have looked better if my wrist was thicker (Cheesebun? Haha).
Oh, and a special special thanks to these people on the list for taking time to send me a birthday sms (even though some of them already wished on on Saturday haha)/
Ivan Liling Naomi Ting Wei Cass MUM Bing Rong Sylvia
Thank you so much! =).
Haha, also, if you're reading this Jia Jun, thanks for spending the day to play pool with me at church today! =)
